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Name: Yuli
Gender: Female
Birthday: 13 July
Nationality: Indonesian
Race: Chinese



Tuesday, November 20, 2007
I am myself

What's wrong with the changes I wanna make?

What's wrong with the things I do in order to enjoy myself?

Why must people think that way?

I am old now and I wanna do things that people do at my age. Am I hurting anyone? No right? I am clean alright!? I ain't breaking the law!

I used to think that way too. That was few years back, but, as the times goes by, my thinking started changing. I think this is the process of growing up. People don't stay the same way forever. Everyone WILL change!

I know due to the difference in age, they might not even understand what I am thinking. I mix with the people at my age and they behave like me too. It's perfectly normal.

I really enjoy getting along with them although they are younger. I really do. But this is the thing that I feel so different from them. How I wish if I am the same age with them. May be things won't turn out like this? I dunno.

Imagine, a few years later, I will be an adult who faces more problems in life than now. So, I think this is the best time for me to enjoy myself and GET WILD. Will I be able to dress up like an 18 year old teen when I am 30? No right? "Enjoy my youth while I am still young" is what I always think.

I am sorry I was being too harsh but I am really not in a very good mood recently. Well, I really enjoy my school days with them around me. I really love them. I guess it's due to our difference in age and gender? I think it's reasonable if they don understand me, who is older than them. And I really don't like to be the oldest one. But what to do? *sigh*









Why I am expressing so much unhappiness in my blog recently? I hope next post will be the positive one.


Good night~